I AM A GODDESS!!

ORIGINALLY POSTED AT MY PINK POSSE BLOG ON OR NEAR
Sat, Sep 25, 2010 at 2:00 AM

Wow, what a show!!! I regret to say, that with all that's been going
on, I haven't exactly filled you all in about ELIAS yet, so I shall do
that next! However, this must be written, NOW! Right this minute,
while it's still with me!
I went to see ED Kowalczyk this evening! Former lead singer of the
band Live & a great one I might add! It was amazing!!! Absolutely
AMAZING! The show itself was great, he played "Dolphins Cry, Heaven,
All Over You, Lightning Crashes, I Alone, The Distance, Grace *from
his solo album*, & Dance With You". He played tons more new songs, but
I honestly don't remember their titles.
Anyway, like I said, the show itself was great! Everyone was swaying &
dancing, clapping & singing! Usually at a 'rock show', everyone's
humping everyone else, spilling beer on each other, smoking 'Juana, &
generally acting crazy. Lol. I mean, there's a place for that, I love
it! There's something very primal about being humped, but that's a
whole other story! Lol.
What really got me though, was "Dance With You". The night had been
great, Dad even stood in the pit with me, so that tells you how
subdued it really was! He only went to sit down when he absolutely
couldn't stand anymore, & when we left he said: "It was good, I like
him!" Lol! Ok people, my Father doesn't usually say that!! But Ed was
singing "Dance With You" & he had opened the door when he waded into
"Heaven" by dedicating it to all of us mothers, daughters, ladies. .
., but the flood gates came pouring in with "Dance With You".
He's singing & I'm standing there thinking:
"I'm a Goddess!! I'm a woman! I can give life & exude love & power &
greatness!" In my Dad's words, "I'm the coolest!".
Lol. Normally, your mother helps you to find yourself. You look up to
her, even if the two of you struggle when your growing up, you come
into your womanhood with her as a mentor. However, in my case, & in
alot of cases, women don't have that relationship with their mothers,
& I started seeking another 'mother' to mentor me. So I found it
completely shocking that a man brought me to that last step. I'd been
working my way towards it with Amy *Mamamorphosis*, & I've always
known there was 'something' about Ed's lyrics that I couldn't quite
put my finger on, but it turned out to be a man that brought me to my
realization instead of a woman. I found that quite shocking, but in a
good way.
I walked out of there feeling 'awesome!!!'. He stretched the song out
for 5 minutes or so just repeating & having us echo him.
"I wanna dance with you, I wanna dance with you. . ." & I'm actually
looking for a dance partner! Lol. I 'don't do' that! But I was this
evening, though I didn't find anyone. But it was great!!! He was
telling us how he's partnered with World Vision to help bring clean
water to kids in Africa, *he said: "It's my job to bring a glass of
water to my 6 & 8 year old daughters' bedrooms every night when I'm
home."* & he was thinking about how he took it for granted that he
could do that for them when people in other countries can't do that,
or if they can, they aren't sure that they should, because said water
could be dirty & unsafe to drink. So he wanted to do something about
it & partnered with World Vision on this tour to do just that. So I
was already thinking: "What an amazing man!"
I'm a humanitarian through & through as I said, so the fact that he's
doing something I will do someday was inspiring & then he ended with
"Dance With You" & I just went crazy, but in the best way possible! I
swear, I was flying, or at least my heart was. My heart has wings
now!!!!! Woohoo!!!
So this is me!
I am a Goddess! A beautiful, talented, exquisite Goddess, who can give
life! Who has power & strength & love pouring out of every cell & I
love it! I love me!!

My Night With SHAUN

ORIGINALLY POSTED AT MY PINK POSSE BLOG ON OR NEAR
Sat, Sep 4, 2010 at 11:52 AM
NOTE: HAS BEEN ALTERED TO REFLECT CURRENT KNOWLEDGE.

Hello Pinkies!!!,
So I haven't posted many blogs, or done much of anything else at PP as
of late! Things have been crazy here, but the good thing is, it
culminated in a beautiful night Thursday!!!! Here, the letter I wrote
to a friend on just how well it went!!

Last night was AMAZING!!!! I mean, we're talking, a performance that
was out of the park, out of the stratosphere in fact!!!!!
I absolutely adored it!! SHAUN launched into the newest version of
"DRIVEN UNDER" that they've been playing for people & I nearly
fainted!! Lol. I asked Holly to put me back together if I went all
Jell-o-we! Lol.
I can't say enough good things about last night! I just stood there &
smiled the biggest smile I think I've ever smiled!!
They opened with "No Jesus Christ", then straight into "Needles"! Not
in order, but the set list also included: "Burrito, Driven Under, The
Gift, Fake It, Broken, Fine Again, Rise Above This, & ended with
Remedy". Shockingly, no covers that I can recall, & there was just one
more thing, but I don't know what it was, maybe the beginnings of a
new song just to tease us?
Having said that, I also have to say that the vibe was different. I've
always felt very
connected to SHAUN *& I don't mean my crush*, I do mean an actual
"soul connection" if you will. He seemed more sad then anything last
night. The angry songs were more sedate & the sad songs more sad then
usual. Unfortunately, I think he's fallen rather far off the "wagon"
as they say & is back drinking & doing lord knows what again. Usually
that didn't change the performances in the past, but this time it did.
He likes to change up the lyrics alot! During "FAKE IT" For example he sings:
"Fake it if your out of direction,
Fake it if you don't belong here,
Fake it if you feel like infection!"
But in a live setting he'll change one of those choruses to:
"Fake it if your out of direction,
Fake it if you don't belong here,
Fake it if you can't get an erection!"
Lol! But last night there was none of that. He was just really
subdued, he kept thanking us, but he didn't even swear as much as he
usually does! Lol. Not that he swears often, but he does occasionally,
& he kept it to a minimum last night. He was just quiet & sedate,
played low key, didn't draw attention to himself, said thank you over
& over again & only at the end did he really speak up, just telling us
he was glad to be back at the Machine Shop & hoped to come back again.
I really wish I could have seen him afterwards, but that wasn't in the
cards. I hope I can again sometime, I'd love to just be able to talk
to him. Maybe I'll send a letter through windup or their Myspace,
though Troy *their guitarist* will see it then, but maybe he'll still
get it to SHAUN.
Still though, what I said at the beginning remains. It was an amazing
night & I can't wait to do it all again!

NOTE: I spoke with the boys at the Shop a while after that
performance. They said yes in fact he did drink, ALOT! He got up on
the bar at one point and while dancing around called Kevin *Shop
Owner* a "bloody wanker!"

--
"Put the gun in my mouth. . .
& pull the trigger. . .
I feel so alive here!
Put the gun in my mouth. . .
It tastes so bitter. . .
I feel so alive here!!!"--Shaun Morgan "No Jesus Christ"

Love,
Chelle