I Brag I got most of this week's HomePlay for Releasing my Inner Vixen done!!! Just a couple things left to go!!
I Brag I've continued looking at Liberal Arts colleges, some of them ALL Womens!!
I Brag I've taken the advice on procrastination given in one of the Tapping talks last week and have been spending 10 minutes on cleaning up my Harddrive!
I've spent more on College because I'm getting super excited about that!!
I Brag it's working and I've been either getting things done and/or getting more of them by breaking them down into 10 minute intervals!
I Brag I find I WANT to devote more time sometimes after the 10 minutes is up!
I Brag I'm up to 700 on my "I'm ready to face my fear of not being enough!" Affirmation!!
I Brag I'm kicking ass in all I do!
I Brag I'm beginning to make friends with my Inner Critical Bitch and my Inner Critical Asshole! Whadaya know???
I'm Greatful for Tapping!
I'm Greatful for being a member of Release Your Inner Vixen!!!
I'm Greatful for the FB chat that I can now respond to through Gmail!
I'm Greatful that this makes me a member of FB again via email!!
I'm Greatful that I got my name changed legally at the bank today!
I'm Greatful that they changed it through DHS last week!!
I'm Greatful for Kimberly my coach and leader of RYIV!!!
I'm Greatful for all the enlightened moments I've been having since 2012 began and in particular in the past 2 months or so!!
I'm Greatful to KURT COBAIN, my Brother Mark, my Grandpa Medina, my Grandpa Bennette, my Great Grandmother Lulu, my Uncle Kenny, my Uncle Louie, Mother and Father God and The Universe for coming through for me!
Playing the right music when I'm exhausted and want to quit working out early, being there to listen as I say my Affirmations in the morning, at night and during my workout sessions and for helping me be open to the world around me!
I'm also Greatful to them for helping me become more focussed on how I'm showing up in the world and helping me through this focus when I'm wrong and need to step up and apologize!
Thank you all!!
I'm Greatful to everyone who ever has, is currently and ever WILL read my blog!
Thank you all!
I'm Greatful to SH for checking into Flint MTA transportation for the near future!! Thank you!!
Thank you to everyone and everything on this list!
Love,
Chelle
--
What if the one thing that I missed,
Was everything I need to pass the test,
And if I fail what happens then,
Can I still count on you as a friend
"Live to Rise"--Christopher Cornell/Soundgarden, from The Avengers Soundtrack
Showing posts with label Brags. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Brags. Show all posts
Monday, May 21, 2012
Friday, May 18, 2012
Evening Pages and Brags!!!!
I Brag I went outside today and sat out there by myself for a while!!!
This is a huuuuuuge Brag for me because I've had a fear of bugs that fly/buzz ever since I was a little girl. There was also the fear of getting lost and not being able to make my way back to the house which has actually happened in the past.
Trying to keep it short since bed is calling, but I rode my tricycle into the middle of Gary road and almost got ran over by a truck and I went out to visit my Rabbit Fluffy once during the winter, got lost in the snow and ended up falling in a ditch.
I Brag I did my workout today!!
Got up to 800 with my Affirmation: "I am the essence of love!" and up to 400 with my combo Affirmation: "I am ready to face my fears of abandonment and lonleness!!"
I was working on the Love one but in the middle of it fear kept popping up so I decided to go with it.
I Brag I've been learning to go with the flow lately and that includes with my Affirmations!
I Brag I'm beginning to create my own rules!!
Onto the rest of the day, there was a shabby part this evening after Dad came home and didn't invite me out to eat with him even after I asked him about food and told him I'd be ready whenever dinner was done. I chose to decide that he just wanted to eat alone since he let the girls eat outside. *he usually doesn't do that*.
I admit I was hurt and thought he was being a prick or at the minimum a jerk, but after stewing for a bit I chose to let it pass and my evening picked up!
I got to watch a clip of ELI singing one of the songs for NONPOINT'S upcoming album!! I'm soooo psyched!!!!!! And then to talk with my coach Kimberly on how to figure out what my Major in College will be.
So between her giving me an answer on how to figure it out, watching ELI and choosing to let it go my evening ended on a high note!!
I did my second round of Tapping on school, College in particular. I'm sooo proud of myself for keeping up!! Woohoo!!! Man I rock!!!
And now I'm here writing this!
I put those Science News mags in a bag so they aren't cluttering up my bed anymore!
And I caught the #1 song of the 90's from VH1'S countdown this evening! Bet you'll never guess what it was!!
NIRVANA, "SMELLS LIKE TEEN SPIRIT"!!!!!!!!!!!!
Paaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrttttttttyyyyyyyy!!!! I was soooooo thrilled about that!! Everybody knows KURT is NUMERO UNO!!!!
I backed over my sister's Dog Duke's paw with my computer chair. . . felt like such a heel for doing that! I didn't do it on purpose but I still felt horrible! That's one of the downsides of not seeing!!
Random thought, but I know myself well enough to know I have to say I did it. Even though it was an accident the only way for me not to run it over and over in my mind is to just say it happened. I loved him up afterward and he gave me his belly so I know he forgave me. Sis just said: "You won't lay behind her chair again will ya?"
Oh, and speaking of sis, she got me sunscreen today! I gave her the money, but she stopped at the dollar store and picked it up for me.
So that enabled me to go sit outside and not worry about getting burned up! And I almost forgot, a flying bug decided to stop by for a visit!!!! ARGH!!! I didn't scream or run though. I didn't even jump much. I just covered my ears and waited for it to go away! I'm getting better!! I'm getting better!!
Peace, Love Empathy. . .
Chelle
--
What if the one thing that I missed,
Was everything I need to pass the test,
And if I fail what happens then,
Can I still count on you as a friend
"Live to Rise"--Christopher Cornell/Soundgarden, from The Avengers Soundtrack
This is a huuuuuuge Brag for me because I've had a fear of bugs that fly/buzz ever since I was a little girl. There was also the fear of getting lost and not being able to make my way back to the house which has actually happened in the past.
Trying to keep it short since bed is calling, but I rode my tricycle into the middle of Gary road and almost got ran over by a truck and I went out to visit my Rabbit Fluffy once during the winter, got lost in the snow and ended up falling in a ditch.
I Brag I did my workout today!!
Got up to 800 with my Affirmation: "I am the essence of love!" and up to 400 with my combo Affirmation: "I am ready to face my fears of abandonment and lonleness!!"
I was working on the Love one but in the middle of it fear kept popping up so I decided to go with it.
I Brag I've been learning to go with the flow lately and that includes with my Affirmations!
I Brag I'm beginning to create my own rules!!
Onto the rest of the day, there was a shabby part this evening after Dad came home and didn't invite me out to eat with him even after I asked him about food and told him I'd be ready whenever dinner was done. I chose to decide that he just wanted to eat alone since he let the girls eat outside. *he usually doesn't do that*.
I admit I was hurt and thought he was being a prick or at the minimum a jerk, but after stewing for a bit I chose to let it pass and my evening picked up!
I got to watch a clip of ELI singing one of the songs for NONPOINT'S upcoming album!! I'm soooo psyched!!!!!! And then to talk with my coach Kimberly on how to figure out what my Major in College will be.
So between her giving me an answer on how to figure it out, watching ELI and choosing to let it go my evening ended on a high note!!
I did my second round of Tapping on school, College in particular. I'm sooo proud of myself for keeping up!! Woohoo!!! Man I rock!!!
And now I'm here writing this!
I put those Science News mags in a bag so they aren't cluttering up my bed anymore!
And I caught the #1 song of the 90's from VH1'S countdown this evening! Bet you'll never guess what it was!!
NIRVANA, "SMELLS LIKE TEEN SPIRIT"!!!!!!!!!!!!
Paaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrttttttttyyyyyyyy!!!! I was soooooo thrilled about that!! Everybody knows KURT is NUMERO UNO!!!!
I backed over my sister's Dog Duke's paw with my computer chair. . . felt like such a heel for doing that! I didn't do it on purpose but I still felt horrible! That's one of the downsides of not seeing!!
Random thought, but I know myself well enough to know I have to say I did it. Even though it was an accident the only way for me not to run it over and over in my mind is to just say it happened. I loved him up afterward and he gave me his belly so I know he forgave me. Sis just said: "You won't lay behind her chair again will ya?"
Oh, and speaking of sis, she got me sunscreen today! I gave her the money, but she stopped at the dollar store and picked it up for me.
So that enabled me to go sit outside and not worry about getting burned up! And I almost forgot, a flying bug decided to stop by for a visit!!!! ARGH!!! I didn't scream or run though. I didn't even jump much. I just covered my ears and waited for it to go away! I'm getting better!! I'm getting better!!
Peace, Love Empathy. . .
Chelle
--
What if the one thing that I missed,
Was everything I need to pass the test,
And if I fail what happens then,
Can I still count on you as a friend
"Live to Rise"--Christopher Cornell/Soundgarden, from The Avengers Soundtrack
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Brags and Affirmations!
I'm baaaack!! Smile.
I said I had some Bragging to do, so here she be!!
I Brag that I've made it to at least 1,000 with all my Affirmations!!!
Thus far they are:
"I love working out!"
"I lose weight easily and effortlessly!"
"I open my heart to love!"
"I will meet SHAUN MORGAN Saturday 4/14!"
And today's,
"I'm ready to confront my fears!"
Why 1,000 at least?
Because I participated in an online workshop where the Woman who ran it
over at
http://www.mindmovies.com/
Natalie said that it takes the brain 1,000 times of repetition in order for it to start believing what you're telling it.
There's a looong ass story about alpha brainwaves, beta brain waves, delta brain waves, and thaita brainwaves, but without going into all that, this is the short of it.
Now, the flip side is that you can meditate like CRAZY, but meditation and I get along about as well as routine and I get along, so I have opted for this latter, though probably 'more difficult' way of doing things.
It isn't difficult for me though, because I say my Affirmations while working out on the treadmill or bike, and it helps keep me motivated.
I count off in increments of 10 until I get to 100, then 200, 300 and so forth. When I get to 1,000 I get all excited and jump up and down and congratulate myself.
While doing all this I'm so busy my brain has ALOT less time to think: "I wonder what time it is? Can I be done with this damn workout yet!!!??? I could check the clock just once to see what time it is. It won't hurt me. . ." Of course, when I do check the clock my brain goes into overdrive thinking: "Seriously? You've got to be kidding me! WTF is this???!!!"
Or rather, it did do that for a time. Now I actually find it is EASIER to workout. I wouldn't say I'm enthusiastic every day, but it's easier than when we first got the treadmill and the bike and I got on and said: "I fucking hate this! I fucking hate this! This is bullshit! I ought to be able to say 'drop the weight! and poof it's gone!"
So I say this is a much better alternative indeed! Lol.
I actually finished my confronting fear Affirmation before my workout was done so I went back to losing weight effortlessly.
I stopped at 1,100.
So in other words, I was at 1,000, then went back to it this evening when I was done with my fear Affirmation and got in another 100 repeats to finish out my workout.
I Brag I've attended my second protest last week on tax day, 4/17 for anyone living under a rock! Lol.
It was a tax the 1% rally in Flint, though there was only a handful of people in attendence. It definitely wasn't like anything going on in NYC or D.C, but I did have fun!
I Brag I smiled at people as they drove by!
My policy, to be cheerful and friendly when interacting with the public/those who are like me!
I Brag a friend of mine filled out an application for me to start receiving transportation from MTA in Flint and she also put me in touch with another Woman who may be able to help me get transportation into Saginaw!
This is Great because then I'll have access to animal shelters and daycare centers where I can volunteer, plus if rallies are being held I'll have access to them as well!!
All in all it works out fabulously!!
I Brag that when I went to the doc today and found out I'd gained 3 pounds back, I was 203 last week and am at 206 this week, I automatically turned it! I may be 206, but I am not 214! That's where I was when I started. I'm inclined to think my highest weight of all was 220/223, but I'd need my medical records to confirm. My lowest was 197 and that was a year or two ago.
I Desire to get to 197 and then beyond!!
I Desire to keep on with Finer Minds and MindMovies for as long as they prove helpful!
I Desire to confront my fears as I stated earlier, to keep an open heart and welcome love and be a channel for love to flow freely!
I Desire to meet SHAUN MORGAN from SEETHER the next time he comes through MI!!!!!
I Desire to get my period back monthly!!
I Desire to live a pill free life unless they are absolutely necessary to my survival!
I'm Greatful to Natalie, SH, K, Holl, Dad, The Great Pussy in the Sky, the Universe, Mother/Father God, SHAUN, LIV, Cap. Cragen, and the list goes on!
I'm Greatful for their love, bravery *in the case of SVU*, help/support, funny antics, for the laughter they provide and the rage certain people on this list fill me with at times, for it gives me plenty of chances to learn how to deal constructively and overcome my current limits.
I said I had some Bragging to do, so here she be!!
I Brag that I've made it to at least 1,000 with all my Affirmations!!!
Thus far they are:
"I love working out!"
"I lose weight easily and effortlessly!"
"I open my heart to love!"
"I will meet SHAUN MORGAN Saturday 4/14!"
And today's,
"I'm ready to confront my fears!"
Why 1,000 at least?
Because I participated in an online workshop where the Woman who ran it
over at
http://www.mindmovies.com/
Natalie said that it takes the brain 1,000 times of repetition in order for it to start believing what you're telling it.
There's a looong ass story about alpha brainwaves, beta brain waves, delta brain waves, and thaita brainwaves, but without going into all that, this is the short of it.
Now, the flip side is that you can meditate like CRAZY, but meditation and I get along about as well as routine and I get along, so I have opted for this latter, though probably 'more difficult' way of doing things.
It isn't difficult for me though, because I say my Affirmations while working out on the treadmill or bike, and it helps keep me motivated.
I count off in increments of 10 until I get to 100, then 200, 300 and so forth. When I get to 1,000 I get all excited and jump up and down and congratulate myself.
While doing all this I'm so busy my brain has ALOT less time to think: "I wonder what time it is? Can I be done with this damn workout yet!!!??? I could check the clock just once to see what time it is. It won't hurt me. . ." Of course, when I do check the clock my brain goes into overdrive thinking: "Seriously? You've got to be kidding me! WTF is this???!!!"
Or rather, it did do that for a time. Now I actually find it is EASIER to workout. I wouldn't say I'm enthusiastic every day, but it's easier than when we first got the treadmill and the bike and I got on and said: "I fucking hate this! I fucking hate this! This is bullshit! I ought to be able to say 'drop the weight! and poof it's gone!"
So I say this is a much better alternative indeed! Lol.
I actually finished my confronting fear Affirmation before my workout was done so I went back to losing weight effortlessly.
I stopped at 1,100.
So in other words, I was at 1,000, then went back to it this evening when I was done with my fear Affirmation and got in another 100 repeats to finish out my workout.
I Brag I've attended my second protest last week on tax day, 4/17 for anyone living under a rock! Lol.
It was a tax the 1% rally in Flint, though there was only a handful of people in attendence. It definitely wasn't like anything going on in NYC or D.C, but I did have fun!
I Brag I smiled at people as they drove by!
My policy, to be cheerful and friendly when interacting with the public/those who are like me!
I Brag a friend of mine filled out an application for me to start receiving transportation from MTA in Flint and she also put me in touch with another Woman who may be able to help me get transportation into Saginaw!
This is Great because then I'll have access to animal shelters and daycare centers where I can volunteer, plus if rallies are being held I'll have access to them as well!!
All in all it works out fabulously!!
I Brag that when I went to the doc today and found out I'd gained 3 pounds back, I was 203 last week and am at 206 this week, I automatically turned it! I may be 206, but I am not 214! That's where I was when I started. I'm inclined to think my highest weight of all was 220/223, but I'd need my medical records to confirm. My lowest was 197 and that was a year or two ago.
I Desire to get to 197 and then beyond!!
I Desire to keep on with Finer Minds and MindMovies for as long as they prove helpful!
I Desire to confront my fears as I stated earlier, to keep an open heart and welcome love and be a channel for love to flow freely!
I Desire to meet SHAUN MORGAN from SEETHER the next time he comes through MI!!!!!
I Desire to get my period back monthly!!
I Desire to live a pill free life unless they are absolutely necessary to my survival!
I'm Greatful to Natalie, SH, K, Holl, Dad, The Great Pussy in the Sky, the Universe, Mother/Father God, SHAUN, LIV, Cap. Cragen, and the list goes on!
I'm Greatful for their love, bravery *in the case of SVU*, help/support, funny antics, for the laughter they provide and the rage certain people on this list fill me with at times, for it gives me plenty of chances to learn how to deal constructively and overcome my current limits.
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Back To Bragging!!!
I Brag that I worked out on the treadmill today for over an hour and have been almost every day for the past three weeks!! And when I say almost, I mean I've missed ONE day completely and there was one day where I only walked for about a half an hour!
I Brag that during my walk I spent 10 minutes spring cleaning on anger!
I Brag that after that I spent another 5 minutes or so coming up with affirmations and repeating them each 10 times!!!
These have been used by others I'm certain, but I waited and actually thought about them until they came to me!
I Brag I didn't force them out of me!
If they weren't working then I came up with something else!
These included:
"I love being healthy!"
"I deserve love!"
"I am beautiful!"
I later altered this to say:
"I am beautiful, bold, strong and confident!"
I'm usually not one for long, drawn out wordy affirmations *though this is exactly how I write letters and blog posts!!! Lol* but these felt right so I went with them irregardless of how long they were!
And:
"I shall receive all that I Desire!!"
I Brag that after my SC session I ended with a BGD as well!
I Brag that sometime last week I had expressed a Desire to untangle myself from the leader of this creation and instead retain an objective stance so that I could take advantage of BGDS and SC'ing whenever I need to.
I Brag it's working!!
I Brag at the end of my affirmations I remembered and acknowledged that I'm the only one who can determine whether or not I have a good day and I vowed to make the rest of this day as fabulous as humanly possible!!
I Desire to fill it with laughter, joy and happiness!!
I Brag I'm the shiiiiiit!!!
I Brag I found a Great Alternative radio station a couple weeks ago, 90's Alternative through radio tuner and it is Greeeeeeeaaaaaaat!!!
I Brag their playing Harvy Danger "Flag Pole Sitta" right now and I'm thrilled!!
I Brag that I got Sadie's fur cut Tuesday and she looks beautiful!!
She shivers like a chihuahua though! She's a CockerSpaniel or so they say! Lol.
She is but I pick on her since she shivers.
Rebecca calls her a squirrel and Dad calls her his little brown cow. Lol!
It's a miracle she even knows she's a Dog!
Finally, I Brag I'm in the process of making my name change legal!
I just got the paper from the Saginaw News stating that they ran the ad last Sunday!!
It actually ran last Saturday, but online it said it was updated Sunday.
So woohoo for me!!
Fingerprints and background check are already underway!
I Brag my court date is set for Monday 5/7 at 1:30!
I Brag that during my walk I spent 10 minutes spring cleaning on anger!
I Brag that after that I spent another 5 minutes or so coming up with affirmations and repeating them each 10 times!!!
These have been used by others I'm certain, but I waited and actually thought about them until they came to me!
I Brag I didn't force them out of me!
If they weren't working then I came up with something else!
These included:
"I love being healthy!"
"I deserve love!"
"I am beautiful!"
I later altered this to say:
"I am beautiful, bold, strong and confident!"
I'm usually not one for long, drawn out wordy affirmations *though this is exactly how I write letters and blog posts!!! Lol* but these felt right so I went with them irregardless of how long they were!
And:
"I shall receive all that I Desire!!"
I Brag that after my SC session I ended with a BGD as well!
I Brag that sometime last week I had expressed a Desire to untangle myself from the leader of this creation and instead retain an objective stance so that I could take advantage of BGDS and SC'ing whenever I need to.
I Brag it's working!!
I Brag at the end of my affirmations I remembered and acknowledged that I'm the only one who can determine whether or not I have a good day and I vowed to make the rest of this day as fabulous as humanly possible!!
I Desire to fill it with laughter, joy and happiness!!
I Brag I'm the shiiiiiit!!!
I Brag I found a Great Alternative radio station a couple weeks ago, 90's Alternative through radio tuner and it is Greeeeeeeaaaaaaat!!!
I Brag their playing Harvy Danger "Flag Pole Sitta" right now and I'm thrilled!!
I Brag that I got Sadie's fur cut Tuesday and she looks beautiful!!
She shivers like a chihuahua though! She's a CockerSpaniel or so they say! Lol.
She is but I pick on her since she shivers.
Rebecca calls her a squirrel and Dad calls her his little brown cow. Lol!
It's a miracle she even knows she's a Dog!
Finally, I Brag I'm in the process of making my name change legal!
I just got the paper from the Saginaw News stating that they ran the ad last Sunday!!
It actually ran last Saturday, but online it said it was updated Sunday.
So woohoo for me!!
Fingerprints and background check are already underway!
I Brag my court date is set for Monday 5/7 at 1:30!
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