Naropa University!

This is a little story about what happens when one decides their NEVER going to do something, irrespective of what that something might be.

My something was school. College speciffically. I said NEVER again, NEVER, EVER again!!!
Well then the 2012 World Tapping Summit came along and I realized on the day that we were discussing how we identify ourselves that I had identified myself as someone who HATED school!
It seems to me I've written this before, so I'll spare you most of it. The short of it is that I LOVED school when I was little! I was so excited I had boundless energy and could not be contained!
It was only in elementary school that that love began to fade and in middle and high school that it was murdered!
Realizing that I was carrying around a false identity I began to Tap on it, twice as I wrote in a prior blog post.
After that I told the Universe I was here to co-create with her and was ready!
I sat there typing one day when the word "Non-Traditional" popped in my head so I ran with it.
"Non-Traditional Colleges" was what I typed into Google and the Huffington post popped up.
There were 11 Colleges on that list and I also came up with a few more thanks to a discussion board about Colleges.
I went with Naropa. I looked over the rest of the Schools on the list, but I really wanted a University so that I could go through a Graduate program *if I Desired* and wouldn't have to go for more schooling unless it was in my Pleasure to do so.
I explored Brown University and College of the Atlantic, but settled on Naropa U for it's Buddhist inspired Contemplative Education and the fact that they work with BODY and mind, not just mind.
I've been realizing over the past few months just exactly how NUMB and DETACHED I've been when it comes to my Body, so I was thrilled when I took in NU and realized what a Contemplative Education would really mean for me.
I can only speculate as to how an Undergrad or Grad program at NU will change my life at this point, but however it changes and shifts me I AM READY!!
Much love to all,
and thank you for reading!
Chelle
--
"Like the sun we will live to rise,
Like the sun we will live and die!
And then. . . ignite again!"
"Live to Rise"--Christopher Cornell/Soundgarden, from The Avengers Soundtrack

An Update, And A Decision!

Hello my dearly beloved readers!!,
I have decided to begin writing about manifestation here! Now these
posts will be dated this year, but I will be writing them as though it
were already 2013.
To make things even more complicated for all of you *because I love
you*, I will be referencing things that have happened in 2012 as if
they've already occured as well.
Example:
I will be applying for a loan to visit the University of Naropa campus
in Boulder COLO sometime in the next couple weeks. *I'm waiting for
the application to arrive in the mail*.
So if I'm writing about January 1st 2013 I would write something like this
"The Naropa campis is absolutely amazing!! The staff are wonderful and
when I get back for registration I already have a place lined up to
stay! I made several friends on my visit! The loan I applied for went
through with flying colors and I am absolutely Greatful it did!! I had
several wonderful experiences getting to meet with staff, sitting in
on classes and checking out some of the local eateries and shopping
hubs! I even went to visit Denver 30 miles away and had a fabulous
time visiting one of their animal shelters speciffically for rescuing
CockerSpaniels! It was an amazing visit and I'm dying to get back!"
So that's how something like that would read.

I'm working on the language of manifestation here so I'm positive
there'll be a gaff here and there. My main focus though is perfect
imperfection, a very easy dream to achieve!
It means I focus more on my content and the emotion than whether or
not I 'WROTE' the 'RIGHT' thing!!
Whatever I write is RIGHT for me!

On another note I've done a pretty good job of keeping up with
tapping! I've missed once or twice, but also done two tappings a day a
couple of times. The tapping challenge lasts for 40 days and the
tapping world summit ended around a week and a half ago now, perhaps
closer to two weeks. I admit it, I haven't been marking days off my
calendar! Go ahead, spank me, but you can't take away my Birthday!
Lol.
On another note I have settled on Naropa as written above. Yes, I
realize I've bearly kept anyone abreast of this ever changing
situation!
Once again, another story for another blog!!
Thank you to everyone who's been reading, you all are beautiful and
appreciated! In fact, you are adored!! I've gotten the most views from
the US, 31, and the least from the UK, 1. Though taken altogether it
states that I've received 1,794 views since I started this blog.
Woohoo for me!! I've always known I'm a ROCKSTAR!!
Much love and goodnight!
Chelle

My Gorgeousness Journal, Thank you SARK!

What gorgeous things would you like to stand beside you? List 2 to 25 items in a column, as quickly as you think of them.
1. ELIAS!
2. SHAUN!
3. Honesty!
4. Trust!
5. A cool summer breeze!
6. Trees!
7. Lots of Cats!
8. Lots of Dogs!
9. A depth of awareness and subconsciousness the world has not yet known!
10. Babies, tons and tons and tons of Babies!
11. A hammock.
12. An El Paca bedspread.
13. Clean laundry!
14. Rocks of all different shapes and textures and sizes, ranging from very smooth and soft to weatherworn.
15. Roses, a whole field of roses!!
16. Birds!
17. A pile of freshly mown grass!
18. A pile of fall leaves, crisp and crunchy!
19. The sun!
20. The moon!
21. The ocean!
22. The earth! I would love for Mother Earth herself to rise up and stand beside me!
23. People, of all shapes and sizes, all colors and ethnic backgrounds, all religions and sexual orientations!
24. Snow, love snow!
25. Innocence. . . I would love for innocence to rise up and show us all that we're all innocent!
I took liberties here big time since leaves and grass and feelings or emotions don't 'stand' but it's my list and I can put what I please on it! Smile.
--
What if the one thing that I missed,
Was everything I need to pass the test,
And if I fail what happens then,
Can I still count on you as a friend
"Live to Rise"--Christopher Cornell/Soundgarden, from The Avengers Soundtrack

Inner Vixen, Affirmations and College Brags!

I Brag I got most of this week's HomePlay for Releasing my Inner Vixen done!!! Just a couple things left to go!!
I Brag I've continued looking at Liberal Arts colleges, some of them ALL Womens!!
I Brag I've taken the advice on procrastination given in one of the Tapping talks last week and have been spending 10 minutes on cleaning up my Harddrive!
I've spent more on College because I'm getting super excited about that!!
I Brag it's working and I've been either getting things done and/or getting more of them by breaking them down into 10 minute intervals!
I Brag I find I WANT to devote more time sometimes after the 10 minutes is up!
I Brag I'm up to 700 on my "I'm ready to face my fear of not being enough!" Affirmation!!
I Brag I'm kicking ass in all I do!
I Brag I'm beginning to make friends with my Inner Critical Bitch and my Inner Critical Asshole! Whadaya know???
I'm Greatful for Tapping!
I'm Greatful for being a member of Release Your Inner Vixen!!!
I'm Greatful for the FB chat that I can now respond to through Gmail!
I'm Greatful that this makes me a member of FB again via email!!
I'm Greatful that I got my name changed legally at the bank today!
I'm Greatful that they changed it through DHS last week!!
I'm Greatful for Kimberly my coach and leader of RYIV!!!
I'm Greatful for all the enlightened moments I've been having since 2012 began and in particular in the past 2 months or so!!
I'm Greatful to KURT COBAIN, my Brother Mark, my Grandpa Medina, my Grandpa Bennette, my Great Grandmother Lulu, my Uncle Kenny, my Uncle Louie, Mother and Father God and The Universe for coming through for me!
Playing the right music when I'm exhausted and want to quit working out early, being there to listen as I say my Affirmations in the morning, at night and during my workout sessions and for helping me be open to the world around me!
I'm also Greatful to them for helping me become more focussed on how I'm showing up in the world and helping me through this focus when I'm wrong and need to step up and apologize!
Thank you all!!
I'm Greatful to everyone who ever has, is currently and ever WILL read my blog!
Thank you all!
I'm Greatful to SH for checking into Flint MTA transportation for the near future!! Thank you!!
Thank you to everyone and everything on this list!
Love,
Chelle

--
What if the one thing that I missed,
Was everything I need to pass the test,
And if I fail what happens then,
Can I still count on you as a friend
"Live to Rise"--Christopher Cornell/Soundgarden, from The Avengers Soundtrack

Evening Pages and Brags!!!!

I Brag I went outside today and sat out there by myself for a while!!!
This is a huuuuuuge Brag for me because I've had a fear of bugs that fly/buzz ever since I was a little girl. There was also the fear of getting lost and not being able to make my way back to the house which has actually happened in the past.
Trying to keep it short since bed is calling, but I rode my tricycle into the middle of Gary road and almost got ran over by a truck and I went out to visit my Rabbit Fluffy once during the winter, got lost in the snow and ended up falling in a ditch.
I Brag I did my workout today!!
Got up to 800 with my Affirmation: "I am the essence of love!" and up to 400 with my combo Affirmation: "I am ready to face my fears of abandonment and lonleness!!"
I was working on the Love one but in the middle of it fear kept popping up so I decided to go with it.
I Brag I've been learning to go with the flow lately and that includes with my Affirmations!
I Brag I'm beginning to create my own rules!!
Onto the rest of the day, there was a shabby part this evening after Dad came home and didn't invite me out to eat with him even after I asked him about food and told him I'd be ready whenever dinner was done. I chose to decide that he just wanted to eat alone since he let the girls eat outside. *he usually doesn't do that*.
I admit I was hurt and thought he was being a prick or at the minimum a jerk, but after stewing for a bit I chose to let it pass and my evening picked up!
I got to watch a clip of ELI singing one of the songs for NONPOINT'S upcoming album!! I'm soooo psyched!!!!!! And then to talk with my coach Kimberly on how to figure out what my Major in College will be.
So between her giving me an answer on how to figure it out, watching ELI and choosing to let it go my evening ended on a high note!!
I did my second round of Tapping on school, College in particular. I'm sooo proud of myself for keeping up!! Woohoo!!! Man I rock!!!
And now I'm here writing this!
I put those Science News mags in a bag so they aren't cluttering up my bed anymore!
And I caught the #1 song of the 90's from VH1'S countdown this evening! Bet you'll never guess what it was!!
NIRVANA, "SMELLS LIKE TEEN SPIRIT"!!!!!!!!!!!!
Paaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrttttttttyyyyyyyy!!!! I was soooooo thrilled about that!! Everybody knows KURT is NUMERO UNO!!!!
I backed over my sister's Dog Duke's paw with my computer chair. . . felt like such a heel for doing that! I didn't do it on purpose but I still felt horrible! That's one of the downsides of not seeing!!
Random thought, but I know myself well enough to know I have to say I did it. Even though it was an accident the only way for me not to run it over and over in my mind is to just say it happened. I loved him up afterward and he gave me his belly so I know he forgave me. Sis just said: "You won't lay behind her chair again will ya?"
Oh, and speaking of sis, she got me sunscreen today! I gave her the money, but she stopped at the dollar store and picked it up for me.
So that enabled me to go sit outside and not worry about getting burned up! And I almost forgot, a flying bug decided to stop by for a visit!!!! ARGH!!! I didn't scream or run though. I didn't even jump much. I just covered my ears and waited for it to go away! I'm getting better!! I'm getting better!!
Peace, Love Empathy. . .
Chelle

--
What if the one thing that I missed,
Was everything I need to pass the test,
And if I fail what happens then,
Can I still count on you as a friend
"Live to Rise"--Christopher Cornell/Soundgarden, from The Avengers Soundtrack

Evening Pages, My Day!

Good Evening All!!,
So i'm back for another round!
I don't know how 'Random' my thoughts will be this evening, but I read through the Morning Pages before coming to the end of the night and realized I hadn't Tapped yet, so I did that. Woohoo!!
Even though the Summit is over the challenge is to Tap for the next 40 days.
I just finished my first day!! Woohoo!!
I Tapped on school.
I suppose I ought to explain what Tapping is mayhaps?
The shortest explanation follows.
Our bodies have Meridian points in them, over 100 if memory is serving me correctly.
I know where SOME of these are.
The Chinese are the ones who found them and use acupuncture *sticking needles in corresponding points for different ailments* to alleviate pain and even make it disappear.
Tapping is the same thing minus needles! You Tap on the different points while discussing a problem you have. There is no wrong way to Tap.
So tonight when I was Tapping on school my set up statement went like this:
*Tapping on karate chop point *the meaty part of the hand between the first knuckle of the pinky and connecting to the wrist*
"Even though I identified myself as someone who hates school and by extention college, I choose to love and accept myself."
I said that three times,
Then Tapped on my eyebrows, outside of the eye, under eye, under the nose, under the mouth *so crease where bottom lip meets chin*, collarbone, underarm *for Women where the bra strap goes*, and top *crown* of my head.
The first time was negative, things like I hate school and I feel betrayed that the adults didn't protect me!
NOTE: Kids punched, kicked and spit upon me during my school days and the teachers gave them slaps on the wrists while the principal was not my PAL at all and allowed them to get away with it! The super intendant did the same right up until we sued when I was in the 6th grade.
Anyway, I filled that entire round with negative statements like that. I did a second round of negatives because I was still feeling it.
On the third round I alternated between negative and positive statements. If you're doing round after round it's not imperative to use the karate chop point, so after the first round I did the subsequent rounds
Eyebrows, outside of eye, under eye, under nose, under mouth, collarbone, underarm and top of head.
So eyebrows would have been something like 'I really hate school!
Outside of eye would have been something like: 'Maybe I don't hate school.
Under eye: 'I still really hate school!
Under nose: Maybe I'll be safe in college.
and so on and so forth.
The last round I did was all positive.
Examples:
Eyebrows: I am safe now!
Side of eye: I will love and protect me!
Under eye: I am strong and capable of protecting myself!
and so on until I reached the top of my head.
One ends by taking a deep breath in through the nose and releasing it slowly through the mouth.
I have to say I'm not exactly sure how to describe my feelings at the moment, I'm not sure if their 'better' but they definitely aren't worse!! Smile.
I shall just keep on keepin' on and see what happens within the next few days!
We went on the hunt for colleges today, my sis copied the list from the HuffingtonPost and I'll start researching them tomorrow I think! Unless I get to excited that is, in which case I'll start researching before bed! I think not though because I do feel pretty tired.
I also helped Dad fill out that paper from the state today so he'll put the money and the paper and the court document in the mail tomorrow!! Woohoo!! One more thing done!!
I got everything for Module 2 downloaded so I can start working on that tomorrow!! Still have a few wrap up things to do for Inner Vixen 1 but nothing to difficult I'm happy to report!!
I finished my I love me! Affirmation today, got up to 1,000!! Then I started on "I am the essence of love!"
My Inner Vixen was definitely at play for that one!! Lol.
NIRVANA came on the 90's Alternative station I listen to through tunein.com
http://tunein.com/tuner/?StationId=65667&
It was "ON A PLANE: so KURT sings: "I'm on a plane!"
And the song gets over. I turn it down to focus back in on doing my Affirmations and instead of saying: "I am the essence of love!" I say:
"I'm on a plane!"
Lol! I just shook my head and said: "Um. . . I'm NOT on a plane! That's not even part of my Affirmation! Thanks alot KURT!" *picture big smile here*
Then my sister and her boyfriend came in and were talking to me and when they left I added in something they said to my Affirmation and had to do a course correction again! Lol.
Later on I was with R and my sis at a garage sale and I was trying to tell them that I read in yesterday's TriviaToday newsletter that mosquitoes are more likely to bite people who eat bananas. Only problem??? R said something about seeing a bee just before I tried to tell my story so I exchanged bee for mosquito and had to repeat myself twice before I could correct it! Lol.
Needless to say I was feeling pretty loopy earlier!!
Anyway now the night is just winding down, I plan on watching the Top 100 songs of the 90's 41-20 and then heading to bed at 1 or a little after.
I'm trying to think of anymore stray thoughts to catch but nothing's coming to me.
Though Goddess knows I could sit here and type all evening, it just wouldn't be 'random'!
Hope everyone gets a fabulous night's sleep!!
Love,
Chelle


--
What if the one thing that I missed,
Was everything I need to pass the test,
And if I fail what happens then,
Can I still count on you as a friend
"Live to Rise"--Christopher Cornell/Soundgarden, from The Avengers Soundtrack

Morning Pages: Random Thoughts Upon Waking

Good morning all!!,
So I actually started these Morning Pages back when I was a member of a website called the Pink Posse.
Just a website for all who Desired to to congregate and make friends.
www.ning.com/pinkposse
Anyway, I picked up a book from Julia Cameron called "The Artists Way", and in it she recommends Morning Pages as a way of decluttering your thoughts.
So I did it for two days and that was it! Lol.
This morning I woke up and thought: "Ahhhhh!! Today I can finish my Home Play for class #1! *I'm taking a class with my coach Kimberly on Releasing Your Inner Vixen*. Then: Shiiiiit!!! Today's Thursday!!! Today starts class #2 and I haven't even written my Inner Vixen's Manefesto or Her Declaration to the Universe!!!"
And that was just in the first few seconds I woke! Mind you, I was listening to a piece of meditation music from Om Harmonics, and this still happened!!
I've been doing sooo many things as of late I could write 10 blog posts, but this morning I'm aiming for the random thoughts! Lol.
Then I thought, I really need to fall back asleep, I've only gotten about 7 hours of sleep. Am I really tired though? I usually live on less sleep. But I HAVE to do my Home Play for class before Module 2 is released! *check clock, clock says 8:51*, I say forget it, already passed 8, Mod 2 HAS BEEN released! Ok. . . I'm getting up. . . so I do. Well, sort of. I roll over on my right side and lay there listening to Sadie. I swear, my CockerSpaniel has giant ears that are more like a bug's antennae!! She KNOWS when I'm awake, even if I bearly move or even when I don't move at all!! So I lay there listening to her walk around and think she'll have to go out when I get up. I then wonder what the weather will be like because I refuse to freeze my ovaries off taking her outside! Then I think she'll pee on the floor if you don't take her out. . . Ugh!! I want to start my morning off fabulously thank you! Needless to say I don't actually climb out of bed for another 5 minutes or so. When I do I see my Science News Magazine stacked 3 deep on my computer chair which reminds me I gave Dad $40 to get my new birth certificate made up with my NEW NAME on it!
Yes, that's something else I did, changed my name LEGALLY! The hearing was held on Monday May 7th at 1:30PM and Judge Patrick J McGraw legally dropped 'lisa' from my name!! So I am now MICHELLE MEDINA!!!!!
So at some point I need to send in the court sealed paper plus the $40 to the state so they can mail me back a new birth certificate!
And those are just the thoughts I was able to collect before I sat down to write! I briefly thought about being hungry, reading those Science News Mags, continuing to Tap even though the 2012 World Tapping Summit is over!!! CRY!!!! And then another thought that TODAY IS THE DAY!!! My sister is taking me to the library to check out NON-TRADITIONAL COLLEGES!!! Yes, yes I know. . . I really do have ALOT to catch up on here. . .
I shall start working on an Affirmation like: "I post on my blog every day with effortless ease!" or "Posting on my blog is a breeze!" or something like that! Lol.
So anyway, the point of Morning Pages, which can actually be written at night before one goes to bed if one likes, is to declutter your thought processes. You just do your best to collect all these random thoughts and by doing so it makes it easier to either function during the day, if you write them in the morning or maybe sleep at night if you write them before you go to bed.
I'm willing to bet that if you're like me and working on noticing and putting your awareness ON the thoughts that come into and out of your head, it will make that easier to.
We have so many random thoughts during the day, I can't remember the exact number, but suffice it to say it's ALOT, that we rarely catch and hold what we're actually thinking. By slowing down and thinking about it, we can catch negative thoughts and begin to squash them before they get to far! By the same token, we can also catch positive thoughts and put our focus on them if we so choose. Not to shabby, right?
Talk later!
Love,
Chelle
Listening to: "Bettterman" Pearl Jam!

--
What if the one thing that I missed,
Was everything I need to pass the test,
And if I fail what happens then,
Can I still count on you as a friend
"Live to Rise"--Christopher Cornell/Soundgarden, from The Avengers Soundtrack